This day when I think of, it makes me feel so
proud of you because I never had so much strength as I had at that time.
I am not talking about any labor pains or
delivery push and struggles because I never had one.
The circumstances and the situations that
brought me to deliver you and that too when all the doctors in Canada said this
is going to be a normal delivery and that too on April 17. That date was the
only truth I believe but rest was all new and sudden. I remember how my mom
feared my death in this whole caesarean operation for delivering you.
I always feel it was you who made me a
courageous woman that you were born, and I found a friend in you.
"A mother is a daughter's best friend"
My idea of having a daughter was more or less because
I know how to raise a daughter I think, and more over my lessons were from my
mom in which I was going to do some addition or deletion in the manner she
raised me and that’s all I did. My mom made sure that I always understood what
it means to be living with financial independence and how to take care of
yourself. There were things that my mom never discussed openly with me and I
don’t blame her because it was her upbringing and the culture in which she got
raised made her do so.
"There is nothing as powerful as mother's love and, nothing as healing as a child's soul"
But I adapted those things which she didn’t do
and tried to imply with you, so you have awareness. I believe things can be
different if we are aware of it and so we can at least have options otherwise
we are like lost souls and hesitant to ask anyone.
I feel proud looking at you because when I was
19, I was doing what I want to do, and I was very adamant about it. This
confidence always was supported by my parents and hence I never felt anything
about my growing up. I wish the education system that I was growing in was like
how we have in America because I would have chosen what I am enjoying today in
my career, that’s the only regret that I couldn’t dive into technology. When I
look at you feel so good that you moved around with your thoughts and when the
time came you made that change for yourself and look you are part of the STEM
movement 😊, I am very proud
mom for that reason as well.
"Never forget that I love you. Life is filled with hard times and good times. Learn from everything you can. Be the woman I know you can be."
Besides all these academics and career paths,
your dedication, hardworking always makes me feel that I don’t have to worry
about you in life now. You know your stuff and if things happen you know how to
get out of it because we learn from our mistakes and grow much wiser.
As always, I tell you, love people, be
respectful and treat everyone equally. There will be times when some may not
deserve that but think about it that they might have different reason for their
situation. Be careful and always take care of yourself and do not forget you
have a loving brother who always misses your love which you often hide from him
by not expressing.
Happy 19 Rhea, life is good, and you will meet
lot of good people in life. Be strong and stand for yourself because if you
will not then who will? Never think you’re alone in this, always look at it as
an opportunity to make that first impression and nail it.
With love your mom
~ Dawn
