The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy.

How disconnected I feel without my laptop…:(
I never considered my laptop as an electronic system…but it had become part of me..which connected me with my nears and dear ones…I could spend all day and night with my laptop and today…with all my emotions I have to express that I am not able to login to my laptop!

“A thunderstorm is God's way of saying you spend too much time in front of the computer”

Seems like some virus has trespassed my laptop’s property…I am using my friends laptop..thanks to him for supporting me in such a crisis time.

“Hardware: the parts of a computer that can be kicked.”

Guys but the good news is that I have taken my laptop to the doctor ;) yes…one of the System support guy is going to help me and make sure that I don’t loose my data :D…

Let's not forget that the little emotions are the great captains of our lives and we obey them without realizing it. ~Vincent Van Gogh, 1889

I felt that all these posts that I add here in my blog, is with the help of my laptop…no matter where I go…whether it’s the Frankfurt airport or Moscow , India or even Amsterdam…it has always accompanied me through out….so this post is dedicated to my laptop and yes guys…please pray for my laptop’s well being :D

One's suffering disappears when one lets oneself go, when one yields - even to sadness. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Southern Mail, 1929, translated from French by Curtis Cate

What is the opposite of two? A lonely me, a lonely you

They can’t sit quite
And always fight
But either one goes away
The other feels the part
What is it that doesn’t keep them tight?
But still craves to be right ;) ~ Dawn

Don’t know I saw this picture and the quick thoughts that came in was this….may be its individual perception what you look in the picture…:D
Within you I lose myself...
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again.

I miss my friend today….I hope to see my friend soon!!!

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

“Women are never stronger than when they arm themselves with their weaknesses”

Happy Birthday Sis Keshi.....let me begin this post with one of the incident that I witnessed...am sure you will like it...dedicated to Keshi...I want to see your reaction..;)It was hot sunny day …and as the time was crossing it was more like a mid afternoon.. though it was not yet noon!
A girl walks in to the parlor and the moment she comes in..a lady greets her and she says I want to do manicure and pedicure!
The lady greeted her and made her comfortable with a magazine…since it seemed like she was a walk-in client.

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.” ~ Ashley Smith

The girl was not sure of the shop or the place but seemed very curious and anxious about everything. She picked her nail color and was seated in the spa to soak her feet in the warm soapy water…as the time went her pedicure was done and she was getting ready for her manicure…! The lady cleaned her finger nails and asked her to pay first!
This is something I have seen in US only as, other places people have to pay only when the service is done and is satisfactory!

“Love of beauty is Taste. The creation of beauty is Art.” ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson



Well, the girl asked for the total price and she went to grab her purse only to realize she doesn’t have enough money to pay. She said, ‘do you take credit card or debit card please?’ and the lady said, “No”! We take only cash or cheque.

At this the girl couldn’t think of much but took her cell phone and started calling someone…she spoke something in her language and then there was this loud noise from the other end…the girl’s face started getting pale and she started looking at other people around her who were looking anxiously by now at her …since by now she had caught everyone’s attention towards her conversation..!

“The expression a woman wears on her face is far more important than the clothes she wears on her back”

Don’t know what happened, she hung up and she asked the lady if there is any ATM machine near by so that she can withdraw the money and pay to them. The lady suggested her about a near by gas-station where the ATM service is available. She quickly convinced them that she will be back with the money…and by now the lady asked , Is your Dad mad at you?’ With a slight smile…and the girl for a moment she thought and then said, ‘My Dad never yelled at me’.

“If you suffer, thank God! -- it is a sure sign that you are alive.” ~ Elbert Hubbard

And then there was a deep silence. She ran towards the door quickly and then all I saw was she came back within 15-20 minutes with the cash.! She paid to the lady with a tip and thanked her for waiting and trusting her.

I was thinking…those words again and again,”My Dad never yelled at me” !

“Any man can be a father, but it takes a special person to be a dad”

What has she done that someone who was not her Dad but was yelling at her...because she said she don’t have enough cash to pay?

Later I saw she was wearing her ring in the ring finger, which she had removed for her manicure!!

“How can a woman be expected to be happy with a man who insists on treating her as if she were a perfectly normal human being.”

Any way …I took a long drive just to spit out that thought from my mind as it kept on bothering me …!
Some how Himesh Reshamiya , his music is a hit but I don’t like when he sings as it sounds like it’s the same tone and tune :D…but this one I liked it …’Soniyo…tere bina meri subha nahi hoti (Love, without you there is no mornings ..some where there…am trying to add that in my radio blog…!)

“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.” ~ Sophia Loren

“I CAN is 100 times more important than IQ”

I went to Keshi’s blog and I was bitten by this tag bug :D…so here I go..

“You must love yourself before you love another. By accepting yourself and fully being what you are, your simple presence can make others happy.”

Accent: I have this accent where people keep guessing where I come from however, my Canadian friends love it as they say I am Canadian and I do have that accent :D.

Booze: Fruit-flavored Vodka or say cock-tails ;)

Chore I Hate: I Well there is nothing that I really hate but..if someone is two faced then that’s it for me…I try to avoid and ignore :D

Dog or Cat: Love both and had 4 dogs and two cats so far :D they are truly your friends and companions

Essential Electronics: My PC, mobile phone and my digital camera :D.

Fav Perfume: Its Pleasures from Estee Lauders.

Gold or Silver: I love silver and platinum jewelry and I love to wear jewelry as per my dressings…I enjoy this activity :D.

Home: Its still Toronto :D…I just cant change it !

Insomnia: Nothing that I can think of…as I sleep sound when I lay my head on the pillow :D…am some how achieveing that level where my time management is exceeding me to have a peaceful time at work …even though deadlines are right at the door…I think am used to all this and know how to not stress out :D…!

Job Title: IT Project Manager /Consultant.

Living Arrangements: My little family that now I have created in California.

Most Admirable Traits: I do admire myself for my ability to smile in any difficult situations, not to make others unhappy by yapping my own problems, I love to laugh with others and most which others also say is my carefree nature with people which brings life to others too...

Number of Sexual Partners: I think some things should remain private isnt it ;) lol!

Number of times in hospital: Twice as a kid…and rest is all for my flu-shots…

Phobias: I don’t think I have any phobias…tried my level best to think and cant figure out…nope..none!!!!

Quote: '“You yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.”'

Religion: Love and humanitySiblings:not sure hehehe Keshi you elder or younger …lol!

Time I Wake Up: 7am on weekdays, 7am on weekends as weekdays make me to go work but weekends I get more time when I get up early …though life-long as a student I was never an early bird :D….am sure my mom will be surprised at this one :D…but my dad always supported for late rising moments…;).

Unusual Talent or Skill: I think I have usual talents which everyone may not have but its not that its rare to have either :D! Good people skill and negotiation skills..which helps me to move in life and I am believer in ‘prevention is better than cure’ so am very cautious of what I am doing :D …lol!.

Vegetable I Love: bitter melon and Cabbage

Worst Habit: I don’t know as I really thought very hard…when I didn’t find any answer I asked my friend and my friend said..I don’t see any bad or worst habbit in you …what can I say?

X-Rays, Last time: I don’t remember

Yummy Food I Make: Chicken Biriyani

Zodiac Sign: Scorpio

Love of my life: Music

“Why compare yourself with others? No one in the entire world can do a better job of being you than you.”

One father is more than a hundred Schoolemasters

Yes, that what I personally feel with the title of my post today!
I have gone to school and got till my masters and even learning today from day to day life, work experience, courses to upgrade…but all had the base which my Dad taught me as a child while I was growing with him.

“He didn't tell me how to live; he lived, and let me watch him do it.”

I remember when I was a kid, my dad always used to drop me to school and while returning back I used to walk back to home with one of my neighbor who was probably a year or two older to me…!

“Do not be misled: "Bad company corrupts good character”
My direction was always poor so…one day we had a new gal in the class and somehow teacher made her to sit next to me. We became such a good friend the first day itself that when the school got over we both were holding each other’s hand and were walking home. I didn’t realize until she took me to her house and I was all zapped saying..no I have to go to my home..! I was totally lost and I started crying. This was when I was in Jr. Kinder.

“If you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading.”

Luckily in those days one of the lady who used to come to everyone’s home for census to collect information and she saw me on the road crying! She quite a senior lady that time, asked me what happened? Why am I crying? I told her the entire story and she said don’t worry; we will do something to be in touch with your dad.

“I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” ~ Jimmy Dean
She took me to my friend’s home- the same gal and her father was a military guy he took me to the Security Authorities in NDA. Guess what the officer was my dad’s friend :D
He very nicely pacified me and asked me my Dad’s name and when he heard…he simply called my dad and said…when are you coming to pick your daughter, since when you said you are coming and she is waiting here for you eagerly..:D

“I am not only a pacifist but a militant pacifist. I am willing to fight for peace. Nothing will end war unless the people themselves refuse to go to war.” ~ Albert Einstein

I was so happy that my dad already knew where I am! In no time he was there to pick me and the hug that I got from him, could make me feel what went through his mind since he heard from my granny that I didn’t reach home from school and the neighbor guy said – I searched for her till the school got empty and then I walked to home! My dad always used to come home for lunch and I used to eat my lunch with my dad. My granny was living with us in those days…!

“A father is always making his baby into a little woman. And when she is a woman he turns her back again.” ~Enid Bagnold

All, I remember is my father still loves me the same as I was a kid….:D !!
I agree, my mother after bearing me for 9 months in her womb, she gave birth to me but since then my Dad, nourished me with his enormous love and affection till date…isn’t that something great…? I think so it is!

“Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.”


Father! - to God himself we cannot give a holier name. ~William Wordsworth

“Stay committed to your decisions, but stay flexible in your approach.”

Today as the day was proceeding…I was quite hopeful about a successful delivery of a product…a product that any vendor will feel proud and as a customer …also it will make proud!!! But alas!!! It wasn’t the case..!

“Wisdom is not a product of schooling but of the lifelong attempt to acquire it” ~ Albert Einstein

Some how as a PM I have no trust in the vendor now after so many fixes they keep adding scripts that will mitigate one or the other mistakes of there’s.. And hence I don’t give a green signal to go-live for my project! Its not something any PM would like to do but then…none of the PM’s would like to make a delivery just to meet the deadline and give a crap!

“Trust is like a vase.. once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.”

Even though the launch I had pushed for the week…I was quite feeling comfortable and at peace…that I didn’t make a wrong decision!
After doing all my do diligence…I finally decided to call-out tomorrow morning as an official announcement!

“Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.”
All this made me to relax and watch a movie… ‘The Postman’ ~ IL Postina , Yes an Italian movie ..Believe me it’s the simplest of a movie that I have seen ever…a slow movie…about a simple guy who is so simple and naïve that he falls in love but is unable to express, he is ready to do every hardship just to get a job and not leave his country…more over what I have seen in this guy –the postman is that he loves to read …and it shows how a simple man can achieve what he dreams for.

“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny.”

An amazing movie …it is slow but touches very deep aspect of life! How a small thing also makes an impact in a common man’s life…its so well depicted in this.

I felt good that I saw this movie…Thanks to my friend who suggested to see it :D

But this quote is for my dearest Jaan gumnaaaam.....

“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

"The only way to have a friend is to be one."

I have been tagged by my buddy Kumar Chetan and here I am… :D
Anyone who is interested can take the tag on from here…its like the love bite ;)
Ok here I go……..

Childhood friend : Don’t know which part of the world they are now...

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."~ Martin Luther King Jr. ~

College friend : Yes I am still in touch with two of them just because they got married and the gal is very sincere and loving that we are still in touch

"A true friend is someone who thinks that you are a good egg even though he knows that you are slightly cracked."~ Bernard Meltzer ~

Hostel friend : Many….and I still miss them a lottttttttt.

"Treat your friends as you do your pictures, and place them in their best light."~ Jennie Jerome Churchill ~

Close friend : My close friends are many…and am glad to mention here that they include my virtual friends too :D...

"A friend is someone who sees through you and still enjoys the view."~ Wilma Askinas ~

My sister : I found my sister in Keshi….otherwise I don’t have any :D…but I remember as a kid I used to ask my mom for a baby sister :D….

Sisters is probably the most competitive relationship within the family, but once the sisters are grown, it becomes the strongest relationship. ~Margaret Mead

NetPals: Many and they are all very loving …they have made me feel that this Internet world is a better place to be in ;)

"Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly."

“The real test of friendship is: can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple?”

Today I am going to talk about the mix of moments and emotions, when a person goes through. This is about one of my best friend…! He had his movie released and look at the moment that his father who was suffering due to some illness had to part from his family and friends..!

“The pain of parting is nothing to the joy of meeting again.” ~ Charles Dickens

I called this friend to congratulate and I hear this sad news as well…but all I felt was since father was suffering it’s a relief for him to part from the body and I think as we grow we as human have to understand and relate to that level of spiritual thinking…where we as human has no hands in to play!

“Every parting gives a foretaste of death; every coming together again a foretaste of the resurrection”

I pay my deep and sincere condolence to the grieving family and to my dear friend.
I have never seen such a talented, versatile human and I pray to god for his good health and success!

“I am adaptable, flexible, versatile, and ambitious. I am confident that I can do it all. Just give me a chance and you will see.”

I have made him to promise to make a visit to my place, though he was supposed to visit during this month, however he has postponed due to all the family loss.

“The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances; if there is any reaction, both are transformed.” ~ Carl Gustav Jung

But at the other end, he says its his fathers blessings that his movie made a big hit at the box office…am so glad he is taking things positively!

“That the film turned out to be coherent is a miracle. That it is successful proves there is a God.” ~ Martin Brest
Life is so mean sometimes…its always a give and take aspect and that is what I feel in this case…father couldn’t see this success of his son but I am sure father knew of his son’s talent long before.
Guys I am talking about the movie ‘Phir Hera Pheri’
Director: Neeraj Vohra Producer: Firoz NadiadwalaCast: Akshay Kumar, Suniel Shetty, Paresh Rawal, Bipasha Basu

….am sure this will make everyone to pass the comment…do let me know the review of the movie …as I have heard from my friends that it’s a hilarious and kept them through out entertaining..!

“Film as dream, film as music. No art passes our conscience in the way film does, and goes directly to our feelings, deep down into the dark rooms of our souls.” ~ Ingrid Bergman

I have to see this movie yet…and I have promised my friend that I will call him and give my personal review after watching it.

Today is a day when I am so excited for my friend’s success.

“A good film is when the price of the dinner, the theatre admission and the babysitter were worth it.” ~ Alfred Hitchcock

“The best way to cheer yourself is to try to cheer someone else up.”

World Soccer ….who can be deprived of this sports :D…yes but I do know some of my friends who hate the word also :D….! Yes its all about liking the sport and enjoying it!

“Sports do not build character. They reveal it.”

I am a deadly fan of this…whenever World Cup takes place no matter which country I always remember my days in Canada. We used to have this huge TV in our lunch room and we often used to go for water or some excuse and would wait there to see those…gosh!!!

“These things I warmly wish for you Someone to love, some work to do, A bit o' sun, a bit o' cheer, And a guardian angel always near”
Now, as I read the updates and the scores…its driving me nuts…that I am not there to watch …! I remember when there was this soccer match in Dublin and everyone suggested to get out of the city ASAP…as there are so much violence involved as the fans gets cheering there team…and I think more than teams it’s the fans who take things seriously!

“It would be nice to have someone to cheer for. The camaraderie of a team, I think, would be nice. Just someone to hang out with.”

Today one of my best friend asked me whom I am cheering…:D…good question….first I said I am hardly getting moments to spend on that one to see due to project load however when I updated about Germany winning the match…she said yeah…I think they are the host so they should…and I reacted quickly..>WHY?
“It's why we play the game. Anything is possible, anything can happen, and teams will prove that again...”

No hard feelings…for me the most challenging and interesting match would be where two tough teams comes against eachother…as that would be the best entertainment and best moments to break records and the moment of the birth of stars :D…!

“A champion is someone who does not settle for that day's practice, that day's competition, that day's performance. They are always striving to be better. They don't live in the past.”


All the best to all the teams…:)

“One man can be a crucial ingredient on a team, but one man cannot make a team.” ~ Kareem Abdul-Jabbar

“Passion is a positive obsession. Obsession is a negative passion.”

How far a boat can sail in the deep ocean if all are handicap?
Yeah…that’s how you feel when you see your team is with negative approach!
Even before the match if you predict that we are going to loose then what did you played??? You will be surprised to read the below quote from Einstein :D

“You have to learn the rules of the game. And then you have to play better than anyone else.” ~ Albert Einstein

I think its better to die in the battlefield rather than running away as coward: D
May be these are too harsh to say here but that’s how I feel when I as a PM trying to motivate the team for the success of the project and one single person with his/her negativity…. creates all the turbulence.

“If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.”

Today, finally the Release Manager asked me…what is that person up to as I always see that person bringing some or the other issues rather than giving a positive approach to it…!!!
It’s the faith in yourself….or else it’s the belief that you are setting yourself for the failure from the beginning..!

“Fear is a habit; so is self-pity, defeat, anxiety, despair, hopelessness and resignation. You can eliminate all of these negative habits with two simple resolves: I can!! and I will!!”

I always believed in myself if not anyone else…and hence I have always conquered through difficult situations just by keeping that light of flame burning even when the tides and winds were high and heavy: D
“Adopting the right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one” ~ Hans Selye

My only advise to the person today was…’have patience’ and probably the person understood: D I hope!!!!!

“Be vigilant; guard your mind against negative thoughts.” ~ Buddha

But the best part is my rest of the team has so much faith and trust in me, which inspires my confidence level …and guess what…am being consulted in many occasions for project management…now is that good or bad…the work load will tell :D

“When you respond to life, that's positive; when you react to life, that's negative.” ~ Zig Ziglar
“Think like a queen. A queen is not afraid to fail. Failure is another steppingstone to greatness.” ;)

There never was a good war or a bad peace.

I had an opportunity to see this movie by Stephen Spielberg…Munich!
I know since this movie got released I am planning and then it kept on getting nominated for the Academy Awards …I suppose 5 times and still I couldn’t get a chance!

“The combat deepens. On, ye brave, / Who rush to glory, or the grave! / Wave, Munich! all thy banners wave, / And charge with all thy chivalry!”

Today I was just about in the Blockbuster to get my free movie when I saw this movie there and said ..Yes, this was something that I was looking for ages :D
Amazingly done…it has shown what happens to the people who actually works in this and the people behind this they seems to live a good life!!!
But the people who actually do this dirty job they just keep fearing for there own life and family.
A very well taken movie with a message to mass that an eye to eye is not the solution…I remember MK Gandhi

“Nonviolence is a weapon of the strong” ~ MK Gandhi

and Martin Luther King Jr. who believed in MK Gandhi and took inspiration through out his mission for the people of America.

“Nonviolence means avoiding not only external physical violence but also internal violence of spirit. You not only refuse to shoot a man, but you refuse to hate him.” ~ Martin Luther King Jr


In all, we all know violence is harmful not the person who is killed but also to the killer..!

“That's all nonviolence is - organized love.” ~ Joan Baez

But overall, the base of this movie in which the Israeli Olympic players who were taken as hostages and later killed were never remembered…but the violence went on killing each one of them assuming one is Palestinian and the other is Israeli.

“There is no way to peace, peace is the way.” ~ A.J. Muste

“Silence is the true friend that never betrays.”

“Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart.”

Have you ever thought why nature. …sculptures. paintings….looks beautiful to us…? Sometimes we forget that they don’t speak…they are in silence and are created in such a way that one can look in to them to know what they speak but that too with a silence…isn’t that amazing?
In short we prefer silence to speech! If it wasn’t that way then why do we see people who have the privilege of speech and we see that they misuse it by arguments, fights and inappropriate words and notions to hurt others.

“There are times when silence has the loudest voice”
“I have learned silence from the talkative, tolerance from the intolerant, and kindness from the unkind; yet strangely, I am ungrateful to these teachers” ~ Khalil Jibran

I was with the notion that its great to be able to talk as we at least can express ourselves. I have heard people who even though can talk aren’t privileged to speak or express because they are dominated or harassed by someone who is very inhuman and mean to them.
Woman in the society is often treated so…where she has not many rights…if so then she should be in her limits…and these limits no one decides but others for her.

“Silence is the most powerful scream.”

But as I see world more and more…and live to experience each moments in and around life… I presume silence is the best!
And then this thought came to my mind…whenever I went to Niagara…I was lost in those waterfalls…somewhere far but without even I knowing about it! It took me away from myself…and that silence is so divine!

“Silence is a great source of strength”

Similarly nature…I remember as a child I always used to look for our recess time in school as that gave me opportunity to go and sit near this lake. There was a big tree with shade and the sun setting his rays appropriately letting one to go through the spa effect and the silence of water often disturbed by the dry leaves or fruits that used to fall in.. due to the squirrels running around!

“Do not speak unless you can improve the silence”

That’s where I developed the interest in William Wordsworth’s poem! I used to often go with my friend Maitree…when the bell used ring we used to rush to our classes…and we often felt that we both did some kind of meditation and it was a rejuvenating feel!

“Silences make the real conversations between friends. Not the saying but the never needing to say is what counts.”

So I prefer this saying, which I remember seeing in my school’s library section
“Silence is Golden”

….but then when its Jagjit Singh’s voice…I feel the same even though he is expressing some poet’s feelings :D

“Music and silence combine strongly because music is done with silence, and silence is full of music.”

“Perhaps love is the process of my leading you gently back to yourself”

What happens if you are not a process person and you do try to challenge your own knowledge with someone who is pro in process ;)
Yes guys you make a big booboo out of yourself…and that’s what happened today @ work.

“The creative process is a process of surrender, not control.” ~ Julia Cameron

This person is new to the organization and you can see how excited they are that they challenged the Project Management with UAT test process ….she even came close to where she said..we might delay the implementation date …gosh!!!!
I am the project manager for this and guess what…am not moving the implementation date as I don’t find any solid reason to do so..!

“I do not believe in failure. It is not failure if you enjoyed the process.” ~ Oprah Winfrey

The issue started when they wanted to poke in there nose where they got confused with UAT testing and Training…lol!
Today, there was scheduled a serious one hour meeting with all the product managers, SQA manager, Project Manager, Release Manager, Sr Relationship Manager and my manager and what not…

“You all have issues but don’t make peace with them.”

Good thing was that everyone in the room believed in me from the beginning and guess what…as the meeting was proceeding, it totally became a mockery where people started laughing at the kinds of reasons that she felt that this implementation needs to be delayed!!!

“Delay is the deadliest form of denial.”

Guess what..the person who was planning on delaying the implementation ended up saying, there is a gap in her knowledge with regards to the product!!! I think one has the right to ask questions to fill the gap but seems like someone didn’t want to commit on that one..until ..!

“The crucial variable in the process of turning knowledge into value is creativity.”

and also…’ oh we cant delay the implementation because if we do so then the vendor will start charging’ hahaha it was a big laugh as how can you turn yourself around so quickly…?

“Turnabout is fair play”

It was a total waste of an hours time as something more constructive could have been achieved in that duration of time. I learnt my lesson that any communication I need to make sure its in written proof :D

“To learn is to change. Education is a process that changes the learner.”

But over all what I believe is : “Success is a process more than a realization”