Moments are to be Happy ;)

Re-positing as one of my long time reader and friend reminded me of this one today… I had lost some data on my blog and hence its back here again :) Thanks for the reminder…!

I remember I got the Perfect Poet Award on this one by the Poetry blog team.

It was a rainy day 

As clouds were crazy 

Wild and ready to prey 

Sun the naughty one 

Playing his game on the way 

Chilly wind making two hearts 

Close by to be cozy on the day 

Hot sip of coffee and the chillness 

Had to merge like a ray 

The gestures and the silence 

Chirping noise of the birds 

Exchanging lot of words 

That one couldn't hear yet 

Leave you on your way 

With lot of lingering thoughts 

As I drove my car 

Haunting words and the sky 

Taking deep into the dusk 

As if it's going to rain 

When I ask myself - 

'Why think and be stressed? 

Moments are to be happy 

Enjoy the journey 

As the sunsets 

For a new dawn to come 

 ~ Dawn

The simplicity in Identity

Happy New Year wishes to all my friends.

New Year has come again and it's running into its teens now. Today I met a friend at work, it was our casual meet after last year. Since our lunch was done, we went for a walk and it was good to know a person whom I felt was a normal, down to earth and simple.

I meet many people in life, through many avenues and its rare that you think about that person when you are alone. It's not that I didn't think of other friends… all my friends are dear to me and I often think about them when they are not with me…but this one left with the deep thoughts as the person's simplicity amazed me.

Talking about many things, about life, health, music - it felt like talking to human. After a long time I felt connected to a person where I felt their pain is my pain. Their happiness is mine and so are the thoughts too.

As we discussed things about life, eating habits, I felt there is a similarity in thinking too.

Felt good to be connected with this person and I see that simplicity of this friend is what has made me a fan.

I feel more connected to life and human than machines and each time someone gives me that feeling - I wish to thank for that reason or purpose that brought this opportunity to be friends.

My new year post starts with happy and grounded notes.

Life is simple, its only we who let it remain simple or make it complicated.

~ Dawn

Thank You 2013… For bringing me from Myth to Reality !!!!

Dear Friends,

Today I am writing this post to thank the almighty (if he is there or to that super natural power).

The year 2013 started with many shocks and doubts for me. Yes, I always boast about my Healthy family and my healthy history and hence I know I will not be stuck by any other disease but the only rare ones such as AIDS (due to some blood transfusion or so) or Cancer.

Having a bloating stomach for couple of months made everyone at home wonder if I am having another baby. When this started getting noticed at home by everyone, the suggestion from my then visiting mom-in law was to show to a doctor and get it checked up.

I felt that's a good idea since I was having issues with some of my dresses that I always wore and my trip to my Gynecologist was seemed the perfect time to discuss as I was not sure what or why bloating is happening.

Discussing with doctor brought so many ifs and buts of situation that she suggested me to have a ultra sound and I am still not sure the report depicted exactly about the uterus size and details on that but nothing called out as an issue.

I was told by my doctor that I am suffering from Endometriosis and Edenomyosis… quite interesting name or rather serious disease names, right?

I wondered, what the hell is going on within me? I had asked my family and relatives if they had any such problems and I always had a NO answer!

As days were going on and my visit, the doctor was brainwashing me to ultimately do a surgery - Yes, according to her I should get rid of my uterus since I don't need any kids .. aha! sorry, but I believe in science yet I believe in our creation. Yes, whatever is not needed it can be removed naturally why do a surgery? If after having kids uterus was not needed by women then nature should have a way to get rid of it… this strong feeling and belief didn't allow me to go blindly on doctor's suggestion.

One thing I had made sure was if its cancerous or not…and the results were negative…! I decided, no matter what I will do what my heart and body says to me. After all, the doctors are also human being, Yes… they are not God!

I googled and tried to understand this issue and started reading lot of material on it. I changed my diet, I became Vegetarian and then Vegan and then Vegan but ate fish and all those trial and error method that  I did in Chemistry lab, it was time with myself to do.

Though my doctor suggested the treatment which was I felt was less harmful than surgery and hence used the Nu-Va ring.

One thing I want to call out here is when any one says you have such and such issue, psychologically you get impacted first… and then every other issues seems to be the reason for this one.

Yes, friends for my gut feeling I decided to change my doctor and get a second opinion…this time with a doctor who is actually specializing on Endometriosis… and guess what? The test that needs to be done to even detect whether this issue exists or not - HASN"T been done…and yet I was getting treated!

Yes, and let me tell you when I had asked the previous doctor about the issues of using Nu-Va ring, she said no issues, you might feel you are putting on weight but on scale you will not see any change.
It was actually wrong! I could see my weighing scale showing weird numbers which I also started suspecting… anyway to long story to be short… I do not have any issues.

My GI detected its certain food that causes bloating so watch what you eat and today I am so happy to tell you that 2013 gave me a jerk but that was like a roller coaster ride…at the end when I got down out of the ride… I felt good and peaceful.

One message to all my readers… Do not blindly believe in what your doctor says as they are also human being… listen to your body as it speaks to you all the time…Do Not Ignore… and when needed take the right decision as only you know what it is than anyone else…

I want to thank 2013 and say happily Goodbye, for bringing all the happiness like a Santa coming home and giving me all the peace, happiness and loads of love in return as Gift :)

~ The best feeling in the world is realizing that you're perfectly happy without the thing you thought you needed ;)

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Life is in the moment ;) !

Keep your face always toward the sunshine - and shadows will fall behind you… :)

Today my blog has a special person about whom my heart said to write about.

People know this person based on her work and passion. She might be a celebrity.

However, I met a human today and I am only going to write about that element which touched me the most.

I have seen many people in life and it always made me wonder that there is something more in them. I happen to meet this lady whom I felt very humble and polite - mainly a motherly touch.

Being in media and the kind of things you deal with it will always have a rough and smooth sides of it and people might have come across in many ways and can make a judgment accordingly. In my life I have seen and met many celebrities and there is a story behind their success and/or failure. All this is good as it teaches everyone and it’s learning to all.

Papiha Nandy, is a person that I met today where I didn't feel she is from a TV program or a Radio program host. I found a lady made of blood and flesh just like you and me and have the heart of goodwill and blessing words. The lady has gone through a lot physically in her life at a very young age, which is 16. A rare disease which I don't think so I have ever heard of it but its called "Takayasu Aorto Arteritis" which means a disease that affects the main blood vessel leaving the heart and it branches to the pulmonary arteries. When I heard this, it took me back to my science class where we have studied about heart as organ and its function and I was totally shocked to believe something like this had happened to Papiha ji. One can Google it and read the details about it but here it is not about to sympathize but rather I was amazed that a woman who always have to go through lot of struggle in life to reach to a successful strata; Here it is a physical fight which is always 50-50. 

Papiha ji went through couple of bypass surgery at Stanford and got that cleared. She takes medication and makes sure she is up and running with her mission and goal in life and that is to reach to her listeners and viewers and make that effort to touch their hearts and make that difference in bringing the positive element in everyone's life.

I am sure we all want to do good to others but when it comes to physical illness or so one often gets discouraged and many times the person is more engrossed in their thoughts and try to be aloof. But what I admired about Papiha ji was that even though she went through so much pain and tolerance with the disease, she gained all the strength and added into her activity and made sure she is part of people's life. I have heard people calling her for help due to domestic violence or other and she patiently advises them, motivates them and helps them to look at the bright side of life.

When yourself, you are going through issues, you want to seclude yourself but here the case wasn't that…and I admire that courage in the woman. We all must learn in our life's there will be many kinds of disease which might be physical and which might be from outside events yet, never leave that spirit to fight back.

Through this blog post I want to send the message to my readers that life is indeed beautiful and be thankful for what you have and try to be happy in whatever situation you are because many don't even get that in life… a moment to think and ponder!!!

"There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle, or the mirror that reflects it" ~ Edith Wharton

~ Dawn

It looked like rainbow to me.. ;)

The day was so dull 

with traffic so null

Loved driving full

One place to the other

I got to be still

When I saw the trouble

The database was chill

And Server on top of hill

The restart did the kick

Login worked like a stick

Day was slow and steady

When I thought of getting ready

As I drove by

The sky was clear and high

A rush of fire like clouds

Like a rocket in the sky

Some said stormy 

Like a tornado on the way

But when I looked at it

It looked like rainbow to me

~ Dawn

I am riding with the moment… :)

The clouds are crazy

And the wind very breezy

I see the sun a bit fuzzy

As he can’t come out so easy

I love the hide and seek

The clouds and the sun playing!

As the season changing

As the years are passing

I feel a bit of tingling

The happiness is clinging

The friends and the loved ones

Holding me so near

The joy for togetherness

Have no end in the universe

Each birthday passing

Gives me a satisfaction

The journey of life

I am riding with the moment

Taking them along with me

Not worrying about tomorrow

Yet living in the present

Embracing my kids

Who make my life worth

With the man whom they call dad

It’s beautiful to live this life

Where I am still a passer-by ;)

Waiting for each station to pass by!!!

~ Dawn