Illusion is the first of all pleasures!!!
Most words evolved as a description of the separated realities of the external world, hence their inadequacy to describe the one gentle reality within us all.
Wanting to do something is a desire, not a sentence. When I "decide" what I want, I translate my desire into a sentence and then follow the sentence... I take the desire out of my heart and put it into my ego. Asking myself, "What should I do?", brings to mind my habitual answers to that question, it brings in what the voices from my past would want me to do, and it ignores the fact that there are probably no adequate words to describe where my heart is leading me this instant :) I feel like the cat above...being mischievous lol!!!! Seems like training is working on too much ;)
All wars are follies, very expensive and very mischievous ones ;)